Looking back at it now, it was clear I was an alcoholic. But I didn’t see it at the time. It didn’t even cross my mind because I was always drinking.
When I finally realized I had a problem, I tried stopping but I couldn’t. It was extremely difficult for a few reasons.
First reason was that drinking was a habit for me. It was something I did every single day -without fail. It was my world. I couldn’t just stop.
Second reason was my body was dependent on alcohol. I tried stopping and started getting really bad withdrawls. I got headaches, felt nauseous, water would make my stomach hurt -so I couldn’t even drink water even though I was really thirsty. And I was always thirsty, but for alcohol.
So how did I stop? Simple. I just decided to stop drinking.
I made that decision once -but it was an inner decision that I felt in every cell of my being. Almost like on a soul level, if you can picture it.
And that was it.
Once you decide something -but truly decide, you can accomplish anything.